Fun Times...

So my neighbors have a huge party tonight and everybody is loud as hell. I have to work early tomorrow morning and so I'm restlessly trying to go to sleep. I finally lie down and am starting to drift off when none other than my sister's boyfriend climbs in my bed with me. I ask him if he is in the right place and he just rolls over and giggles. WTF?!?!?!? Seriously??? Baby sister would shit her pants if she had to work early in the morning and I made too much noise, let alone if I was in and out of the house all night going back and forth between this stupid party and using our bathroom. Not to mention if my boyfriend were to crawl into her bed in a drunken stupor while she was trying to sleep before working early. Shit her pants. Not joking. I have been cussed out my fair share of times because I "slammed the door" when I got home at 11 pm. I have never been happier to have a lock on my door. I will be using if for the remainder of the night.

First Post

Hello cyberland! So I'm feeling a little unloved right now. I'm sure that isn't the first thing you want to read when  you tune in to a blog for the first time, but frankly it's why I decided to start this up. Has anyone out there ever felt like no matter what they do or how hard they try it will never be enough? Or how about everybody in the world BUT the person you want to be attracted to you is? Seriously, people are enamored with me right now and not one of them is the one I want. Instead, he is being I don't even know what. He is definitely the King of mixed signals. I don't even know what to do or how to handle the situation anymore. And it doesn't help that my friends keep PUSHING him to go in a certain direction. I completely understand if he just needs space to decide what he wants. Hell, I still need space. I don't know what I want either... But it isn't like he has to put a ring on my finger tomorrow. Why can't we just take it slow? Hang out? See where things go without all this ridiculous pressure from everybody??? Well, I think I've asked enough questions for one post. We'll see where this gets me! Smooches!!